I guess i love busy days..

At 6:09 AM on Tuesday, November 30, 2004

Had a busy and tired weekend.

Mummy was my 'chaffeur' for the whole day.Woke up at 630am on Sat for my dental appointment. Confirmed wearing braces but it's some time in May/June next yr. The dentist told me she will finish by 10 so that i have enough time to rush for my event at 11 at singapore expo. But she finished at 1020 but luckily for mummy who took the initiative to wait for me outside e dental beforehand knowing I will be late. She kindly sent me there and really thankful for her I'm on time. The event was a success and I met several familiar faces. My former teacher, Manager, and a few fengshan grassroot leaders. Feels nice to see them. After the event which was supposed to end at 430 with ample time for me to rush to work at cc at 6, however it ended around 5 plus. Thankfully for mummy again she rushed to expo to send me to work on time. I LOVE YOU MUMMY!

CC had a deepavali dinner on sat. Last week was oldies and now indian songs. Anyway, met the same grassroot leaders who went for the event as well in the afternoon at expo. Their first reaction upon seeing me,"wah u again". Haha. Several leaders came in to talk to me and I really enjoy knowing them. Partly because they r some big shots in the community and also cos they r fun loving and friendly people. Enjoyed their company.

Finally comes the Fengshan Grassroot Bowling Competition on Sun. The competition that my manager invited me to join his team representing the Constituency Office consisting of 4 people-my senior manager,deputy manager,a staff and me. Drove there early and waited for my teammates to arrive. There were a total of 17 teams and we ranked 11 in the second game out of 3 games. Haha. Effectively only e 3 guys are contributing to the overall score, My scores are insignificant. LOL. BUT!!My managers said I'm not too bad for a beginner le. I simply love the fengshan grassroot members. Great fun people!

Dis weekend is a pretty short wan for me. Feel that I've not rested enough and it's over. Had headache for 2 days. Sigh. Dun tell me it's back? Though it's been a busy weekend but I guess it's better for me cos I dun tink of things that much. Time passes faster when i have no time for misses. Give me busy days den.

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CarysMummy

Excited. Hmm but Y?

At 7:42 AM on Saturday, November 27, 2004

Since morning busy with work until now. Busy preparing stuff for tomorrow's mega event. Finally had some 'free' time to chat abit n blog abit. Felt excited out of a sudden and I seriously dunno y. Perhaps cos today's FRI! But den again, I got to work tomorrow wad. Strange. Nevertheless the feeling is not too bad. Pretty enjoy it.

Went to Granny's house last night after work cos daddy had to go and exchange company lorry with my uncle. The lorry seriously cannot make it. The clutch gets stuck when u step on it and hafta use ur hands to pull up e clutch. This kind of vehicle how to drive? Luckily my dad wasn't e one hu drives this. I had a good time laughing at how he uses his hands and leg on the clutch though. Haha. Comical.

My Ah Ma couldn't recognise me when i entered e house. She went "Li si di diang?" and i had to shout "Wa si Weiqi la" several times cos she can't really hear properly. Expected she wun recognise me oso cos she only remembers my little sis and keeps "weiwei wu lai bo?" She loves Weiwei la. BUT!!She said I've grown prettier!!LOL! Cos the lights wasn't switched on she can't see properly la. Tink too much. Felt warm when she held my hand and said "an zua li eh qiu ar ni gua?" and keeps rubbing it to warm my hands. *touched* Had some talk with her in Hokkien and i tink I'm good. Thanks to e CC job. It was a nice time with her.

Meeting sis to go shopping after work!!!=)

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CarysMummy

Not again?

At 5:28 AM on Friday, November 26, 2004

Ok yesterday and today was not e least lk e feeling on 19th Nov. Yesterday was down and today things not going smoothly.

Yesterday was e same old Jasmine we had for the past 6 months. Forever having so much things to tink of, an emotional and unhappy thing. As usual. Nothing much changed. A gal hu still lives in the past. Ah yes, I seriously miss U and everything in that 3 mths. Really.

Today was not any better. Was supposed to do name labels from A-Z. I started from A-H almost finishing den dat woman come and tell me got 3 changes at different time. So i had to redo the same thing all over again for 3 times. Then I decided i shall start from the back from T-Z first and leave the messy A-H alone. Den happily doing halfway she came to tell me got changes from T-Z again! Argh. Now I'm giving myself a break as well as let her make up her mind first. It's lunch time anyway.

Went to play the first bowling game in my 19yrs last nite wif mum, dad n little sis. Preparing myself for the game on sun which my CC manager invited me to join his team. So die die oso hafta drag my dad to teach me something cos i've never ever played bowling before! Haha. Dad says I'm Good! He says for a first timer I'm really good! Din noe I cld play too. Let's just hope I wun throw too much face on Sun. Well, I've got a real big face so guess I'll be fine.

I HATE MY FATS!!I HATE BEING FAT!!I HATE MY FAT FACE!!

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CarysMummy

Why liddat ar?

At 5:30 AM on Tuesday, November 23, 2004

Hmm..at work lunch time as usual. Din blog yesterday at e CC because I was simply too busy. Yes BUSY! Had so much work to do cos there was a function last night at e CC for the senior citizens. It was a dance and dinner night. They had buffet and karaoke sessions. Super chaotic and noisy. They blast the music and if the songs were pop n recent i dun mind but they r lk all oldies. Practically everyone's shouting and fighting to be heard. Worse den wet market ar. But it was fun for me as I know many people dere including the old folks. I've learnt to communicate well with old people ever since I started working in e CC. An uncle even said he wanted to bring me for an overseas trip to myanmmar. Haha. But Fengshan CC is indeed a great place to be in.

Pretty irritated with one of my colleague today. I dun understand why she can keep saying she has no time for this and no time for dat when she can chat online. I seriously think there is a problem with her working attitude. Knowing she has got things to do but just refuse to finish it and keeps grumbling she has no time. I understand that one needs to relax at times but time management is important isn't it? Sloppish attitude is something i can't really accept. I just dun understand.

Ok my sis managed to take out e CD. Using pliers and screwdrivers. Haha. Powerful sister I have.

It's Mon. SIGH. Gotta work. Oh ya, just found out that I can't read Donald's blog anymore. No more recent updates/gossips. Sigh.

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CarysMummy

Wonderful wonderful.

At 5:37 AM on Saturday, November 20, 2004

Woke up today in a pretty good mood. Dressed up nicely feeling pretty! Wore my new pair of white shoes. Love it! HAHA. Though abit tired cos of yesterday's tennis but still feeling great!=)

Could have slpt earlier last nite but all cos of dat darling sis of mine i can't. Bugged me to help her switch on e com so that she can watch vcd before she slp. Plus her smart sis ME told her to use e older com to watch instead. Guess what? Old oredi really useless. Be it human or things. Sigh. Watch 3 mins only den hanged. Nvm. E disc stuck inside till now cannot take out ar! We waited lk more den 30 mins but still cannot. Then me and sis decided to use violence to pry open and expectedly we broke the cover of the cd rom compartment. Well, we've decided to throw e com away before we used violence on it. Every other thing works fine except for e cd rom. Sigh. N the disc is still inside now. Haha. Poor sis. Hafta miss an episode. Haha. When she asked me last nite,"er jie, den e disc how?" My only reply was,"in loving memory lor" Wasted my beauty slp. Nothing can replace.

YAY YAY YAY!! It's Friday!!! Meaning no work for the next 2 days except the do nothing CC job tml nite. I'm happy. Going shopping with mummy n sis and most imptly I'M HAVING SUBWAY FOR DINNER TONITE!! HOORAY!! =)

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CarysMummy

Better.

At 5:38 AM on Friday, November 19, 2004

Yup I'm at work again. I guess I MIGHT be able to update everyday here at CDC.

YAY! I'm finally able to do something I prefer! No more callings. *cross my fingers*

Lunch time now. Craving for Subway which had recently became my favourite but they dun haf it here. Sigh. Replacing it with cherry tomatoes. Yum yum.

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CarysMummy

Feel like quiting.

At 6:16 AM on Thursday, November 18, 2004

E first time I'm blogging using not CC's com but CDC's - My new workplace. Actually not new as I've oredi worked here before last Dec but a different department. Formally with social assistance and now with projects. Used to tink I'd prefer being in e projects department but now being in it seemed different from what I thot. In fact, now that I'm in projects, it made me want to change what I've oredi decided to do after I graduate. There is a change in direction. From the former hope to join PA immediately after I graduate to a few yrs break in between before i join PA.

Felt rather disappointed as I thot for once in 19 yrs I'm certain of what I'm gonna do but now everything has changed. I'm still e aimless Jasmine I used to be. Never once I'm definite of what I'm gonna do. Never will I plan ahead. And now it still remains. Still lost. Again.

I hate what I'm doing now. Top 3 things I hate about the work given to me - Making phone calls to whole list of people informing them or getting confirmation. I know it sounds like a simple task but to me I really hate doing it. I want a change pls.

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CarysMummy

Bad bad day.

At 5:42 AM on Tuesday, November 16, 2004

Yup I'm at e CC again. Today's extra working hours. Still prefer here den at CDC. At least I can do my own things without much restrictions. Too many staff at CDC makes things difficult unlike here where there's only 1 staff. How I wish e next 2 mths is spent at CC instead of CDC. Sigh.

I still cannot get over e loss of my shoes. This time round I'm very much affected cos dat's a pair of shoes with sentimental value. I feel like crying. Yes I'm sentimental and emotional. But why can't they steal other pairs? Why must it be that pair? I dun mind if some other pair got stolen but I just want this pair back! I'm sad. Extremely sad. Looking at e empty space where my shoes used to be, I can't help it but feel really sad. At that same moment, associated memories flashed back once again leaving me with a feeling of deep misses all over again. Everything still seemed so vivid that tears uncontrollably rolled down. BB YEP June 2004 has indeed left behind countless fond memories that will live within me till as long as I live. That's e impact it had created on me.

Woke up today not feeling too good. Felt unwell and weak when I went to bed last night. Could feel my limbs strengthless and periods of coldness. A feeling I've not felt for a long time. Even this morning wasn't too good. Restless and lethargic. Unusual. What's wrong with me? Is that the result of missing too badly? Or am i falling sick? I just can't explain the emotions going on within me. Simply indescribable.

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CarysMummy

Long Awaited Update.

At 11:38 AM on Sunday, November 14, 2004

Yes I'm at work at e CC again. Wow dunno how many donkey years since i last updated. Yes my com is still dead.

Guess what? I found a job Mon-Fri, 9am-6pm back at SECDC AGAIN! If shifu sees this he will have something to say. PA siao. Haha. Oh ya, it's been long since i last toked to him. How's ya shifu? Will be working all the way till sch term starts in Jan. Can't go for my class chalet cos of work. Pretty disappointed as this is the first class chalet and I was looking forward to it even before exams. Well.. seems lk I'll just hafta bury myself in work. But den again..going back to the same place to work seemed a little uninteresting. Seems lk almost everything have changed. I guess it's just me..I can't accept changes or cos I'm too sentimental and emotional? I hope I can change instead. Pretty sick of burying myself in e past and feeling miserable tinking of dem. Give me a brand new Jasmine pls?

Hmm.. something unexpected happened recently which requires me to make a decision. Gotten myself trapped between want, fear and worries. I seriously do not know what I want as all this came too sudden. I suddenly feel lk I wanna just avoid but that's not the way to handle. Too childish. But I really dunno wad to do. Typical Jasmine tinking so much again. Everything is actually so simple but i had to make things complicated. Good friends first we shall be but.. Knowing myself, I can if it's natural but this time round I actually found it hard to say let's be good friends first. Is it cos I know that's not what I want? Pls tell me why. Sigh. It's always me. I guess I'll just leave everything to fate and do nothing about it. Frankly, I really can't feel that u're serious. I'm sorry but i really can't. Still, why me? But deep down I noe the problem lies with me. Suddenly felt a sense of guilt. Hmm...

Well, it's been long since i last keep in contact with everyone. Shifu, A10, 4/8, BB Yepers. Our dear Weeyang in faraway land. Wonder how he's doing. Hope he's coping well. Looking forward to meeting him again.

GUESS WHAT?!?!?!?! MY SHOES GOT STOLEN TODAY AGAIN!!!!! AND OF ALL SHOES IT HAS TO BE MY FAVOURITE PAIR!!!!!! ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!! I JUST CAN'T HELP FEELING SAD AND CAN'T STOP WHINING! SOBSOBSOB!!

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CarysMummy

Dying.

At 7:37 AM on Tuesday, November 02, 2004

Here comes an update finally. Did not get to blog on sat while working cos I was busy toking to my colleague and had some work to do. Yes you din hear wrongly! I dun just get paid for nothing alrite. I DID work.Had a nice long talk with my colleague who provided me with alot of insights. She told me bout a dentist she's been visiting and I thot of putting on braces after exam so she recommended me to the dentist. Shall wait till after exams to visit the dentist to solve my bunny cum vampire problem.

Went country club yesterday with my family as daddy went golfing with his friends. So the 4 of us played tennis. Great game coupled with entertainment from my elder sis. She's such a joke. She's just not a ball game person la. Her actions were simply hilarious. When it comes to golf she's not any better so we concluded she's not talented in any ball games. Was supposed to lose weight yesterday but due to my old problem i can't do much. Can't jog cos daddy said not to strain my feet further. Gotten pretty terrible these few days. All red and hurts like crazy. Mum decided to bring me to the sinseh. Ouch.

Getting worried now. Haven started studying. I'm just like digging my own grave. WHAT AM I DOING?

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CarysMummy