` there can be miracles, when you believe..Though hope is frail, it's hard to kill..who knows what miracles you can achieve..when you believe somehow you will, you will when you believe.. ;

At 3:08 AM on Tuesday, September 29, 2009

Happy Birthday to my beloved Mummy in 3 days time! Had an early celebration at Ellenborough Market Cafe in Merchant Court Hotel. Loveeeeeees buffet esp those with sashimi!

My loves

Classic pose yet again.

All time favourite.

That was lunch. Dinner was with ahboy's family cos it's a celebration for his mum's birthday as well. Both mums are 3 days apart.

ahboy's nephew, Nathan. Peekaboo-ing with me in the car. Look at how happy and cute he is.

So much smaller compared to my little darling Wayne.

That concludes my Sunday. Did nothing but eat and sleep. Slept throughout F1 too.

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CarysMummy

At 2:41 AM on

Went supper with colleagues and boss on friday night. Reached home about 4plus am. Had to wake up at 7 to pick sis up from ntu and then head to my uncle's place to kpo cos cousin's getting married this sat and there's this 过大礼"ceremony". So I thought I might as well don't sleep since I surely can't wake up in time. But that resulted in a very dreamy me throughout the day. And it was a long long day.

Me without sleep.

Night was spent at ahboy's place. Bought drinks to spend the night. Got drunk and felt terrible the entire night.

At ahboy's porch.

The 4 bottles that brought me to lalaland.

I still think I look better in glasses.

Having my favourite crispy seaweed.

All inside me.

It's officially my prop now.

After that went to the rooftop, took some pictures, and concussed for the night.

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CarysMummy

At 10:56 AM on Sunday, September 27, 2009

爱只剩下躯壳
为什么还不放手却拉扯
是我不甘心还是不舍
为何我还在固执的拔河
其实我真的很难过
只是难过都沦为沉默
可能我真的不懂得让你更快乐
我想和你在一起却在你未来缺席
给你的爱那些美丽
已长成藤蔓缠着我的生命
在你的未来缺席
像是一出剧本未完待续
预留伏笔把未完成从容继续
如果还有如果就算瞬间老去毫不犹豫
爱是不是都一样
无论多漫长终究曲终人散
可是我不想因为不敢却步沮丧
然后半途收场
如果还有如果拥抱你不犹豫
能不能将你的样子忘掉
舍不舍得爱让我控制不了
只想要把你拥抱
其实爱上一个人没有解药
我的静脉流着爱陪你到老
原来我还会微笑
我真的想和你在一起却在你未来缺席

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CarysMummy

At 5:17 AM on Saturday, September 26, 2009

Enlightenment... 原来是这种感觉。
Feels good indeed. It's really all in the mind.
开心或不开心只是一个决定，一个只能由自己做的决定，没有任何人能阻止或干涩。
生命如此短暂，我实在是不想花在一些无谓的难过，痛苦上。
很多人都说我很幸福，我真的深深能感受得到。
我诚心感谢上帝让我拥有这一切的一切。我会好好珍惜的。

现在我想告诉所有关心我的人，我很好，会变得比从前更好，不用再为我担心了。

Really want to say a huge thank you to Mr HP. After the long talk with you, I've finally really understood and realised how fortunate and blessed I really am. Never once crossed my mind that i'll one day be 'counselled' by you and gain enlightenment. I feel like i've really gained a true friend and I really liked that. Of cos not forgetting Mr KC and Ms JK. You guys and gal are the best! Love you all!

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CarysMummy

At 3:55 AM on Friday, September 25, 2009

Babies... Kids... Simple joys.... Since when did we start to become so complicated? I wished I can be like a baby....

Thank God for this little darling who reminds us that we used to have simple joys. Just looking at him makes your heart truly smile. Not pretentious, not scheming, not harmful, just purity and innocence. That's when you let out your truest smile and leave the scary world behind you, all just looking at him. Simple joy, a term that seemed so far away for many of us now....

By,
CarysMummy

At 3:12 AM on Thursday, September 24, 2009

My question:

(click on it to read)

A surprise answer that made me tear:

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CarysMummy

At 12:38 AM on Wednesday, September 23, 2009

这几天我有好多好多的感触。让我非常的难过。不能说是突如其来的，因为是件早已预料得到的事。虽已预料到也一直在做好心理准备去接受，结果还是受伤了。有好多话想说，但我想已经都不重要了。为什么快乐的时光那么短暂？为什么不能好好的珍惜？为什么明明知道怎么样会快乐还要自己一手把他摧毁。生命那么短暂，为什么不能抛开所有理智的想法，用心去对待一切呢？为什么要让自己那么难受，也让身边的人痛苦？如果我明天就会离开这世界，你我都会不会后悔呢？

人都是犯贱的，都是自私的。我也是人，也很想自私的拥有一切会让自己开心的事，但却害怕伤害别人，所以一直活在矛盾中。很不快乐。

我真的好讨厌这种感觉。一种永永远远失去的感觉。心，感觉到痛就证明了有多在乎。有好多事我很想知道，但我看这一辈子我都不会有个答案。

好想时间能倒流，回到过去快乐的时光。回想起当日的点点滴滴，就叫我非常地不明白。怎么能够就这样当作一切都没有发生过？以前所说过的话，做过的事，都能够抹得干干净净吗？回想起来，真是可怕。原来一切就只不过如此，那么没价值，说抹就抹得掉。一切当做了一场梦。直接把我打入谷底，要我再重新爬起来。

现在回家的路上突然感到好寂寞。再也不需要用望后镜。也没有什么可以期待的。一切都回到了零。连走回家的路也变得好恐怖。还有一切的一切，现已成回忆。看到一些事物，就会很自然的有联想，勾起一些回忆，真的很不喜欢这种感觉。

其实，我只是可望有个像你一样不同的朋友，一个知心朋友。就只是那么一个很单纯的要求。并没有任何非分之想。但是现在完全改变了。我只是很想跟你好好说话，就像从前一样，有说有笑，很快乐。真的好希望一切都没改变，你仍然是我的知心朋友。现在的你，似乎离我越来越遥远，好像永远失去了你一样，让我好难过。是否还能像从前一样? 你将再也不跟我说话了吗？我真的永远失去了你吗？

这些话，就只能够留在这里说。有好多话要说但不知从何说起，就只能留在不言中。我也不可能会得到我要的答案。

过了今晚，我希望明天会更好。把所有的泪水和伤心都抛在脑后，留在昨天吧！

玮琪，好好的珍惜你身边所有爱你的人，不要让他们伤心难过，因为你是最清楚这种滋味的人，又何必再让另一个人受同样的苦呢？

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CarysMummy

At 12:43 AM on Monday, September 21, 2009

It's the zoo again! 2 consecutive sundays at the zoo. But this time was an impromptu family outing to the zoo! Guess what? It's actually my little sis's virgin trip to the zoo in 19 years! Many of us would have visited the zoo at least once in our primary school days but not for this crybaby little sis of mine. Mummy didn't allow her to go on such trips with the school back then. Reason being was mum's worried that she doesn't know how to buy food on her own and that she would cry like she does whenever she goes to school daily all the way till P2. Discipline mistress had to carry her on her lap while she conduct lessons. She cries non stop whenever mum's out of sight.

Anyway, here's just a couple of pics took. Again, blogger isn't exactly friendly for uploading pics. Posted them on facebook instead.

Really can't wait for the disney party!! I'm sure there'll be so much fun!!! Many things waiting for me in Nov! Hurry fast forward to Nov please!

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CarysMummy

At 12:56 AM on Sunday, September 20, 2009

Happy 10th month to this little darling!

Just woke up. Outta bed look. Isn't he super duper cute?

Night was spent at Zirca. My first time there. Kinda like it actually. Just drinking and making myself high. Liked the feeling. Met up with dear's friends. Nice bunch of people!

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CarysMummy

At 12:02 AM on Saturday, September 19, 2009

BRUISED.

Bruises on the outside may be ugly and painful but they certainly go away after awhile easily.

What about bruises inside?

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CarysMummy

At 3:16 AM on Wednesday, September 16, 2009

Back from COB at Science Park. COB's fun! With the right people. No government. Minus they kept bullying me and the long long journey (Really appreciate my home and CBP alot now). Haha! But I still enjoyed it totally! Only can post pics here cos dun think boss will visit my blog but he's on facebook so can't post them there. We were supposed to be working you see! The place feels like an illegal gambling den when I first entered.