God is watching us.

At 1:51 PM on Sunday, March 06, 2005

Today's Passage:

And whenever you stand praying, forgive, if you have anything against any one; so that your Father also who is in heaven may forgive you your trespasses.Mark 11:25

Answers for me from God. Just read it today. He really is watching us.

By,
CarysMummy

L O S T.

At 12:03 PM on

1. Don't tell me the same things are gonna happen to me again. I hope it's not. History repeating itself? Pls pls pls tell me it's not.

2. I feel bad for treating Neve that way yesterday. I really din mean it. Maybe cos i expect too much from him. Sorry Neve. But your words did made me tear.

3. I'm gonna miss the small boy when he's gone. Something which will happen soon. Sigh.

4. I'm afraid I'll do badly for this sem.

5. Daddy reminds me everyday that i'm fat and keeps rubbing into my wound.

6. Been gorging myself with food lately. Perhaps due to stress and unhappiness I divert my attention to food. Situation now is getting out of hand. Mum and aunt are terribly shocked.

7. Forever having crushes.

8. Felt bad towards Nat. Trust me everything that happened wasn't what i planned. I just couldn't help it. Forgive me.

9. Never trust my own feelings anymore. Definitely nothing to do with people out there. Came to a conclusion it's just me.

10. I can never fall in love with anyone for long. But one thing, I really wish i can. Really.


A lost sheep. Searching for directions. Looking for what i yearn for. Nothing found. Miserable.


By,
CarysMummy

It's me again.

At 2:53 PM on Saturday, March 05, 2005

All I know to do is to rant and rant and rant, whine and whine and whine when things doesn't go my way. I know it's high time I quit doing all these. I know and I KNOW! I guess the ONLY person who really knows how to make me really feel much better by listening and comforting me with his words is my Shifu. My bestest friend indeed.

This week has been a pretty bad one for me with tests, work, stress, unfocused mind and bad relationship with people all falling on me. The 3 tests I had this week were terribly done. For that I only have myself to blame for not studying. Work is piling and seems never ending at CDC. (Yes I got a pay rise but so?) I predict life there's not gonna get any better after my newly found young friend cum colleague leaves. Yes I will miss him.

Really agree with what Donald said. I miss those innocent times. No badmouthing, no unhappiness, no worries, no backstabbing, no problems with relationships. Just the pure and simple Jasmine she used to be. But that's no longer the case. Jasmine has turned into a monster. Someone so evil and mean that she dun even understand herself now. Noone understands her. Her character, her attitude, her actions, her behaviour, her mindset are now all unacceptable. A monster she is now. Badmouthing, condemning and giving attitude are all she knows.

I guess it's only a matter of time that all my friends can't stand me anymore and leave me. My only friends left then will be my daddy, my mummy and my sisters and of cos I hope Shifu's one of them.

I just can't seem to put my many thoughts into words and blog them all out now. There's far more things i wanna say. They seem to be drowning me. Whatever. Who will understand them or me anyway?

By,
CarysMummy

LOL. Got this from Jinny's blog.

At 11:28 AM on Thursday, March 03, 2005

Awesome Girl

You scored 81 looks, 89 personality, 55 politics, and 44 sex drive!

You're beautiful and you have a great personality. You either don't know or care about politics. You're probably a great wife or girlfriend, and you know how to make sure that the ones you love are happy. You're probably fun in a conversation and I'm sure that you are as loveable as you are beautiful. You either have a lower sex drive than most girls, or you've never had sex (which I commend you for), I'm sure that won't be a big deal for your partner, just make sure you find the right one.

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CarysMummy