At 10:16 PM on Tuesday, November 30, 2010

Day 1

Boy (showering): Mama, many many hair.

Mama: Hair belongs to Yiyi and Xiaoyi cos all long hair.

Boy runs to Xiaoyi: Xiaoyi, toilet many many hair.

Xiaoyi: Hair not mine, it's Yiyi's.

Yiyi wakes up, first thing boy said to Yiyi: Yiyi, yiyi, toilet many many hair.

(Mama and Xiaoyi stunned he actually remembers)

Next thing boy did was pulled yiyi to the toilet and pointed to the hair.

Yiyi: Okok, yiyi clean up later ok?

Boy: Okie. (Yiyi close door brush teeth, boy walks away)

Day 2

Yiyi wakes up, first thing boy said: Yiyi, toilet many many hair.

Yiyi: (gosh, he still remembers)

Boy: (Pulls yiyi to the toilet and points to the hair). Yiyi, many many hair.

Yiyi: Oh sorry Wayne, Yiyi will clean up later ok?

Boy: Okie. (Yiyi close door brush teeth, boy waits at the door to make sure yiyi really clean up!)

So yiyi bo bian clean up to show him den he walk away.

-_-" Wah piang, give chance leh boy!

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CarysMummy



At 11:26 AM on

It's been 13 years. Fengshan Primary School Class 6/1 1997. This gathering was really good catching up for what we've missed in 13 years. A pity some couldn't make it. Good to hear everyone's doing well. How time flies....

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CarysMummy



At 8:49 PM on Monday, November 29, 2010

The stress built up all these while is slowly breaking me. I really didn't think all these will affect me so much and for so long. The anxiety caused by them all is detrimental. I feel nausea and unwell at every thought, every sentence, every word that are associated. There is just so much going on for me to take. It's a torment both mentally and physically. Ever since, there is parent's acceptance, sisters' accceptance, relatives acceptance, what others say, what others think, wanting everyone at home to be happy, parents to not have to work so hard yet i'm not capable, great fear if anything will happen to anyone, trying hard to change, losing myself, putting in too much feelings in things, accountability, finances, unhappiness at work, living in regret, making wrong decisions, afraid loved ones will be upset, and much more. The worst is what just happened. It has always been on my mind constantly even though I'm someone not close. It just affected me tremendously. I still cannot believe it happened yet it did. It is really something very hard to accept. Today, mum told me something which just added on. How much more will there be? Will I be able to take more?

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At 3:52 AM on Sunday, November 28, 2010

To the little angel,

I really had hoped that this is all but a dream, that all these are not true. Your sudden departure had hurt me greatly. Although i've not seen you, but strangely i could feel the connection, the pain. The special indescribable affinity. Felt really happy choosing the dresses and hat for you and could imagine you in them. The lovely and sweet you, just like your mummy. I still couldn't believe it. Never. You are indeed a little darling, so small yet you made us realised so much in life. You taught us the word 'Cherish' and brought our hearts closer when we were drifting and giving up. Do you know how much you are being loved and missed? You will be in all our hearts, loving you till the end of time. I pray that God has found you and now holding you, loving you and taking care of you like all of us would. I know He would and you will be deeply loved. I know you will be watching over and loving your grandpa, grandma, daddy, mummy and uncle like how they love you. I pray for happiness and health for them all and you the little angel to be living well in another world. Take good care our little angel....

Love and misses,
Aunt Jasmine

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CarysMummy



At 8:01 PM on Friday, November 26, 2010

这些歌突然在脑海里盘旋着。。。其中部分歌词述说着好多好多。。。


没那么简单，就能找到聊得来的伴，尤其是在看过了那么多的背叛。。。
没那么简单，就能去爱别的全不看。。。
相爱没有那么容易，每个人有他的脾气。。。
幸福没有那么容易，才会特别让人着迷。。。


最讨厌被误会了，但越解释越觉得难过。。。
哭过就好了，伤都会好的。。。
爱是为了拥抱为了牵手，不是为了争吵，为了调头。。。
哭过就好了，痛都会走的。。。
失眠听歌想念虽然苦涩，还是谢谢你让我长大了。。。


爱虽然很美妙，却不能为了寂寞又陷了泥沼。。。
爱要耐心等待仔细寻找感觉很重要，宁可空白了手等候一次真心的拥抱。。。
我相信在这个世界上一定会遇到对的人出现在眼角。。。


怎么了你累了说好的幸福呢，
我懂了不说了爱淡了梦远了。
开心与不开心一一细数着你再不舍，
那些爱过的感觉都太深刻，我都还记得。
你不等了说好的幸福呢，
我错了泪干了放手了后悔了。
只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着，要怎么停呢。。。


还有好多好多的歌能述说着我的感觉，情感和想法。


人与人的相遇和相恋是缘分，一个很特别，很珍贵的缘分。不能随意由任何人践踏，必须好好珍惜。一段感情需要双方努力去维持，去经营。这些话，我能噼里啪啦的说个不停，大道理谁不会说? 但在现实生活里，我却彻底的失败，错的一塌糊涂。我不会把错怪在任何人身上因为这条路是我自己选择的。就算结果是孤独终老，我也认了。当初也是自己心不定，经不起考验，今天又能怪谁？或许，闯进了我原本平静的世界，让后把它弄得再也不平静后，选择离开，留我独自看着这不知该怎样收拾的烂摊子，and feel my life screwed up, 是上天的安排，是命中注定吧。根本怨不了任何人，也不会去怨谁。不能后悔因为那根本于事无补。现在能做的只有学着如何去平凑这些洒落满地的脆片。。。

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CarysMummy



At 6:59 PM on Thursday, November 25, 2010

Saw this in the lift this morning. Someone apparently placed chocolate bars on the railings in the lift, one on every corner. Nice yet dubious. Thanksgiving. Sweet.

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CarysMummy



At 8:52 PM on Wednesday, November 24, 2010

This was what I got the day I return from Bali. =) Sweet.

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CarysMummy



At 7:29 PM on

Went on a family trip to Bali from 13-17Nov. Although the weather was extreme, scorching hot this moment and heavy downpour the next, we enjoyed it very much, at least for me. I had hoped we can all stay there permanently, in the villa that is.
Us at the airport. Ordered a low calorie meal which wasn't very nice.
Our villa. (Night) Reached the villa at around 9+pm so didn't really get to see how the villa looks like.
 Our villa (Day). It's really quite a good villa. 3 rooms, 1 living, 1 dining, 1 kitchen (with chef) and a swimming pool. I really wouldn't mind just lazing around in the villa, not doing anything, not going anywhere.


Day 1. Had inhouse breakfast done by the inhouse chef. She suggested doing buffet style so we had mee goreng, fried rice, eggs. Mee goreng wins.

Day 1 intinery was visit to the beach. On the way to the beach, shopping along the way. Just exploring around.

The beach. Nice with huge waves.

Dinner time. Before dinner was a good 2 hrs massage. Balinese and foot massage. It was so-so. Order for dinner was some grilled seafood. Sambal kangkong wins.


After dinner was swimming time! Or rather play water time. -_- Our darling was soooooo happy! We concluded he must have been a fish to love water soooooo much.

Our nightly affair. Bought bath salt and soak every night. So missing it!


Day 2. Breakfast was french toast. Yummy. Itinery was, batik, temple, volcano, wood and beach.

The place where they produce batik. Bought beach scarves. Hopefully they won't be cold storaged forever.


At some temple I don't know what it is called. Since we are all in shorts which is not desirable, we were all given sarong to wrap round.

Not forgetting shopping of course! Here we bought a few bags, a hat, slippers, singlet. Pretty cheap. For the same hat, ang mos pay IDR 80,000 but for me, IDR 35,000.


Playing in the van. Isn't our little darling uber cute with my sunglasses?

Lunch was at the volcano. Buffet with lots of houseflies. Was raining so the breeze was quite chilly. The only time we felt cold in Bali.


Wood sculpture. Really admire them. Personal favourite is the Speak, See and Hear no evil!
Dinner by the beach. Caught the sunset. Beautiful. Food was so-so though.
Some black and white pictures i took. I thought they are quite nice considering the limitations of my digicam. Personal favourite is the picture in the middle!
The food we had. Calamari wins.
More night swimming.
Here's our companions for the nights. Another nightly affair. Beer, crackers, playing cards and scrabble. Never played so much scrabble before.
Day 3. Sandwiches and fries for breakfast. The way the sandwiches were done was pretty impressive. Even mum thinks it's good. Itinery was, monkey forest, temple in the lake and echo beach.
Monkey forest. Initially sis said she read that even though it's called Monkey forest, there's no monkeys one. BUT!!! She's so wrong!! There were sooooooo many monkeys ALL OVER the place!!! There wasn't alot of pictures taken. Simple reason, I was too busy watching out for monkeys. Really quite scary.
Temple in the lake. Great scenery but a pity was raining so pictures were kinda ruined with us carrying the umbrella. We could have taken alot more pictures!! POUT!

Some temple also but due to high tide we can't enter.

Dinner at echo beach. Caught the sunset again. Bali is just about beaches, sunsets, more beaches and more sunsets?
Food was quite ok. LOBSTERS WIN!!
Day 4 - last day. Finally had time for morning swim. Little wayne swims every morning and night. Fully utilised. But me and mei couldn't wake up in time every morning due to scrabble till late night.
Lunch was inhouse. Didn't want to travel too much since we have a flight to catch in the evening so might as well spend more time in the villa. Not too bad. That auntie can cook quite well.
Last few hours before we leave for the airport. Did last min foot massage.
Time to say goodbye to Bali and back to reality. =( I miss our bali villa already!!!!

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CarysMummy



At 12:04 PM on Saturday, November 20, 2010

Who would have expected the baby who sleeps on the coffee table 2 years ago would turn into this sweet, adorable, handsome and bright boy? Our little darling has turned two! He is really such a joy to have, a gem indeed.

He stunned all of us with his, 'I need the candle!' when he didn't see one on his cake.

I hope he likes his gift from me! Present = $30+. The sparkle in his eyes when he saw playdoh = Priceless.
Wayne looking for his 10 individually wrapped presents hidden all over in his room. I really enjoy watching him, just watching him.


HAPPY BIRTHDAY WAYNE! Hope you enjoyed yourself!

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CarysMummy



At 11:13 PM on Thursday, November 11, 2010

我原本以为自己已经渐渐尝试接受，原来并不是。

在我的梦幻世界里，男生和女生扮演着一定的角色。

我不习惯，也很难去习惯自己做的事是一个男朋友该做的。

我，就像一般女生一样，都需要被宠，被呵护。

我承认我已经被宠坏了。习惯了被接送，被保护，被迁就。习惯了当所有人眼中的幸福女人。

这就是我，浮浅的我，你能接受吗？

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CarysMummy