At 2:27 PM on Wednesday, August 26, 2009

He loves to look at these photos and he does that everyday. And I think he particularly likes his grandma's picture smiling sweetly at him.
 Hello?

Stop taking my pictures le!

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At 2:05 PM on

Look at how he removes the ones with the wrong side inserted and push in the ones correctly placed. Noone taught him. He gave us a shock and amazed at how smart he is. Mum couldn't believe it. There's one that he accidentally pushed it in and trying to get it out. He sure knows that's not supposed to be in. Smart boy.

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At 1:43 PM on


Babies are really amazing. They can amaze you when you least expect it. The things they picked up daily without being taught just makes you go 'wow'.

Here's the little one trying to pick up phonecall. He just gave us a surprise by sticking the phone to his ear when it started ringing.



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At 12:14 PM on Tuesday, August 25, 2009

It's true that when you've been through bad times, you see more, gain more and appreciate more. Not that I've been through really bad times, just that after all these, I felt so loved, so cared for by many wonderful friends and my everdearest family. Esp friends that I seldom talk to and when I saw their comments, the feeling is just... extremely touched. Thanks all sweetie, you know who you are. And I'm really thankful for the best parents one could ever have. They secretly discussed to get me the uPapa Hug to relieve my neckaches and backaches. Always accommodating to me when i'm not well and having my best interests at heart. I love all of you and truly thank God for giving me darlings in my life.

A typical day at home.
 Froggy made him stand up. His eyes sparkle when he sees froggy but makes xiao yi super angry.

Looking at his friend, Nathan.

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At 11:41 PM on Saturday, August 22, 2009

Still in a state of tremendous shock. Never felt this kind of fear before. Was trapped in the lift alone about 1.5 hrs ago. The lift stopped at my floor but the door refuses to open. Immediately rang my mum who rang the lift maintanence who said he'll arrive in about 25 mins time. The feeling is just horrible. I could see mum and sis outside, could see that home is near but there's a barrier stopping me from going home, going to them. To be in that kind of situation is really fearful. There were alot of thoughts running through my mind. I was afraid the lift will plunge down suddenly and I'll leave all my loved ones right before my eyes. I know I think too much but really cannot help it when you're in that kind of situation. And when the lift door suddenly opened on its own, and when I saw mama and papa who immediately rushed home and climbed the stairs up 13 storey to save me, I just teared. Papa was all panting from the stairs and considering he's not young anymore, the look he gave me seeing that i'm fine made me so touched and immediately teared. And I made mama so worried for me for consecutively 2 days. Last night she thought something happened to me when she couldn't reach me and stayed up to wait for me and couldn't sleep the entire night. When she saw me she just gave me a hug and said,'吓死我了' I really feel extremely touched and warm. And tonight this has to happen. Just how many unfortunate events I have to go through? My heart cannot really take it anymore.

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At 2:06 AM on Friday, August 21, 2009

See how comfortable this little darling is in my car with my heart cushions. Just fits his head so well. And with his leg nicely rested on mum. So comfortable that he didn't want to get off when we reached home! Our dear little master wayne.




Do not disturb when our master wayne is watching his favourite BabyTV channel.


I thought he looks handsome in this picture. I styled his hair with water. Spikey but can't really capture it clearly here. Love it when his hair is spikey.

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At 1:31 AM on

The sight of medicine really frightens me alot now. I can't believe it i start feeling very afraid at 5 mins before the time for medicine. Really afraid. I have more medicine than food in my stomach and my mouth taste nothing but medicine. Went to seek chinese doctor's help this morning. Did accupuncture and tui na. It was quite painful esp the one inserted into my head and left a bump now. Ouch when i touch it. He said I should have approached him earlier. A look at my xray he said that a segment of my neck is displaced/slanted and there's no cure for that. He can only administer accupuncture to minimise my headaches and neckaches. So, does that mean i'm gonna live with this for the rest of my life? Constant painkiller? Seems to have lost all hope although I did feel that this chinese doctor could improve my life. Sincerely hope so.

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At 4:30 AM on Thursday, August 20, 2009

It's 4.30am and I can't get to slp at all. Physically very tired, headache as usual but mind still very active and I doubt I can get to bed at all tonight. Just too many things on my mind. Unhappy ones. I pray that I'll be able to find my smile back again.

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At 1:47 AM on

Just tell me what else is there for me except to stare at my pc? I'm seriously getting sick of this. There's no motivation anymore. Even that last bit which used to be my biggest motivation seems to be gone. Is that an indication I need to plan to move on? And it seriously doesn't help now that i'm down with this headache-neck-shoulders-back-gastric problems coming one after another and haunting me everyday. And i finally broke down after so long....

The thing that i've always been very proud of has been taken away from me - my perfect eyesight. It came as quite a big blow to me the day I realised I could no longer see clearly, in fact it is a drastic deterioration. Yes it's another of those issues as a result of my back/neck.

经过这一切的一切，我领悟了万物都不是必然的。特别是在我失去了这一直能让我很骄傲的东西。我无法解释那种感觉，有一点担心，一点害怕，一点失落。我真的很难过。

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At 11:06 PM on Tuesday, August 18, 2009

My little darling has learnt to stand. Isn't he adorable?

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At 10:59 PM on

On 2 days mc again. Was feeling quite terrible yesterday. Went to SGH for my specialist appt yesterday. Nothing new from what all other docs have been telling me. Scheduled for physiotherapy and one big bag of medicine. And now, my headache has worsened, vision affected and gastric problems. What's next?

My bag of medicine. The most I had to take in my life till now.

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At 3:33 AM on Saturday, August 15, 2009

It's finally friday! This week passed so slowly considering I did not work on monday. Woke up early today cos our Princess Jessica is coming home today. And yup, it was ntu again. But before we head to ntu, we went to downtown east to get an electric kettle for her. Therefore, it's a much tiring journey this time cause it's driving non stop from pasir ris to ntu and back.

I've been so dreamy and drowsy and sleepy lately. I suspect it's the medication coupled with insufficient rest. The medication do have quite instant drowsy effect. Good only when it's time for bed. I do love the drowsy effect but not when i'm at work or driving. Hopefully my problem will be solved after monday when i see the specialist. Hate to have persistent headaches and stiff neck everyday.

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At 2:01 AM on Thursday, August 13, 2009

Been stoning ever since i came back from dinner 2 hrs ago. Feel super sleepy. Even fell asleep on the sofa after i finished dinner. Thankfully i remembered to set alarm if not I think the next time I wake up would be next morning already. Literally jumped up when my alarm went off thinking I overslept and forgot to go back to work. Sigh. Today is quite a tiring day but not caused by work. Just had insufficient sleep. Only 4hrs cos I had to send my car for servicing this morning and head to NTU to pass my sis the phone I bought for her. But at least I accomplished what I needed to do and glad that she's happy.

Little sis started sch and moved into her hall already wef monday. Which means I'll not get to see her that often. Kinda miss her. But grateful for technology that i'm still able to see and talk to her via webcam. Daddy and Mummy are the most excited ones of course when I created a hotmail account for them and taught them how to chat with sis. Monday night was hilarious and fun with me and them in the room trying to video conference one another, first with little sis and next with my older sis. They just can't contain their excitement and were so eager to learn. So were my sisters I guess. At least I hoped this will make them less worried about them and happy to be able to keep up with the society and technology. My parents are actually still quite hip I feel, esp Mum. And I suddenly had the feeling of being the only child at home. Just Daddy, Mummy and Me.

On a side note, the little darling is growing cuter and cuter each day and i'm loving him more and more each day. The smile he gives you when he wakes up, see you and slowly register that you're actually someone he knows while trying to get himself more sober. Then he will smile so sweetly at you that makes you melt instantly knowing he remembers you. Or when he's in a blur mode and you call out 'Xiao Bao Bei', he heard, saw you and slowly eyes brightened up and starts kicking his legs and waving his little hands in excitement. That's wad happens nowadays when mummy brings him down to wait for me to come home for dinner. He will be looking around with a blur out-of-bed look and slowly start smiling when he sees and hears you. How adorable and precious.

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At 8:17 PM on Monday, August 10, 2009

All of us went away on National Day. Dad booked the Pulai Resorts for 2D1N so all of us went there to have a good rest. Although we've been to Pulai countless times, but this time, no strenuous exercises like we always do, no golf (except for dad as usual), no squash, no basketball, no gym, no swimming, no badminton, no table-tennis, no tennis. Just simple chatting, relaxing, eating and sleeping and a little stroll around after dinner. A resting trip for all of us. Maybe a little more for me and little sis, we did massage and body scrub. Nice and short getaway. Just uploaded some of the pictures here. The rest are all uploaded on facebook.

My favourite group picture! Outside the Chinese Restaurant.






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At 12:52 AM on Saturday, August 08, 2009

I'm multi-tasking now. Drafting this entry while waiting for my reports to be downloaded while pasting the reports while doing the PIs while brijing while checking the options in FOX while waiting for the other screen to finish hanging. But guess i'm still too slow cos work is still stolen. Roars! The stupid PC just wouldn't cooperate with me!! Stop hanging!! And I'm seriously dreading this work. Makes no sense plus really testing my patience. Argh. And yet I can't complain. This sucks.

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At 11:17 PM on Wednesday, August 05, 2009

Went downstairs for a walk with mummy and the little darling in the evening. Stayed here for almost going to 10 yrs but this is the first time I actually took a walk downstairs to enjoy the breeze. Of course this little darling is so happy as he is a very curious baby.





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At 5:13 PM on

Here's little darling attempting to crawl...

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At 10:12 PM on Tuesday, August 04, 2009

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At 8:24 PM on

Given 2 days mc. Down with weak stomach. Can't take in almost everything. Now can only diligently take my medication and see how things go. Asked for medication to let me sleep too. Gonna take later and hopefully i'll get a good night's rest.

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At 2:28 AM on

Suddenly miss the SAC gals so much..... I miss you gals!

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At 1:59 AM on

Ask me what have I done the entire time since I came into the office – Practically nothing. No idea what I’m here for. Quite sick of staring at the pc most of the time. Beginning to rust, to grow cobwebs. Talked to a colleague from Asia today and apparently he’s shaking legs a lot too. Can’t get to sleep last night because of the terrifying incident yesterday. Each time i close my eyes the scene just comes to mind. Mummy couldn't sleep too and is thinking about moving away. Considering I deliberately took the drowsy medicine although I was feeling not too bad just to have a good night's sleep, I still didn't manage to sleep well. Either I get headache everyday or gastric prob every other day. Everyday's about looking into my bag of medicines and deciding which ones to take. Cos if I solve my headache den my gastric will get it. Really sucks totally to feel unwell everyday. Someone please save me. Now my shoulder/neck is hurting really badly and causing a very bad headache. Either someone manages to save me or kill me if you can't. I've had enough!

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At 8:26 PM on Sunday, August 02, 2009

I really dunno wad's wrong with things or with me lately. Been feeling unwell for the longest time ever and doesn't really help with things going wrong around me. Home has become increasingly dangerous now. Leave those countless cases of stolen shoes aside. The first case of sis's clothes got stolen through the window, to a second case of sis's cosmestic stolen through the window as well with things messed up, to a third case of dad saw a boy sticking his hand in attempting to take something to a fourth case now of someone sticking his hand in to touch my arm! This is seriously getting out of hand! I took my medicine just now and fell aslp on my living room's sofa and I felt this finger poking my hand. I literally jumped up and screamed and heard the person running off but didn't manage to see how he looks like. Initially I thought I might be under the influence of the medicine and might have hallucinated but no! It was vivid someone touched me and when I saw that the windows shifted position so that he can easily reach for me if not it's almost impossible that he managed to touch me cos of my position under the window. Gave me a really bad scare and i seriously feel very threatened now at my very own home! Such audacity!

And was really upset with your joke. I admit a very unwell me gets agitated easily. I really appreciate it alot that you rushed over the very first thing you heard about this. But it upsets me alot too when u said that. I really think this is not something funny.

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