At 3:56 PM on
Thursday, March 30, 2006
Daddy's latest art pieces. ( Pls pardon the flash in the middle. )
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CarysMummy
At 2:38 PM on
Tuesday, March 28, 2006
ANNOUNCEMENT!!!Attention everyone!! If you happen to buy above $5 at 7-11 and gotten the Disney badges, and IF you are NOT interested in collecting them, can you please kindly pass them to me? My beloved sis is CRAZY over it. Many thanks in advance. (Okay my dearest sis, I've done my part.)Okay back to myself. Went KTV with Donald, Eunice, Jinny and Juntian today. Though I can't sing for nuts but I enjoyed myself so much! I guess it's the companion that matters. Looking forward to more!Not that I want to talk about it again. But can you people see how much weight I've put on?!?!?!?! But I've learnt that grumbling and complaining will not help. I will start exercising and eating lesser from tomorrow onwards!I'm so proud of myself today. I did think of him but not that kind of feelings. I'm so glad!
By,
CarysMummy
At 4:27 PM on
Sunday, March 26, 2006
HAPPY 21ST MY DEAREST LAO GONG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!I walked past the pet shop at marine parade today and it reminded me of him....
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CarysMummy
At 4:11 PM on
Saturday, March 25, 2006
I'm really guilty for neglecting the bestest group of friends in my life. For always missing gatherings and meetups. I'm really truly sorry my dearies. Lao Gong was so right about me. And really thanks a lot for tonight. I realized how much I actually miss the girls. I know I've always missed them (though it doesn't seem to be the case to many of you) but after seeing them again today, I came to a conclusion that they make the bestest friends one could ever have in their life. All of them, ever so sweet and such dearies. The care and laughter, I feel so attached to them once again. Thank you all for not giving me up even though I've been always missing in action without rhyme or reason. I've always had the mindset that friends aren't that important as long as I have my family that's enough. Today, I finally straightened out my thoughts. They are the friends that I needed. Really. I feel peace being with them. I can be myself with them. I can let my hair down totally with them. I just feel great with them. And this is the side that my JC, Uni and other friends didn't see. That Jasmine that they see is not the real Jasmine. Only the girls saw the real Jasmine.
I've been feeling really upset the past few days. Thinking of him and only him. But the girls came and filled my heart tonight with abundance of joy. Thanks to all my dearies ( Lao Gong, Sebrina, Hwee Ying, See Hwee, Jie Ying and Hao Yun ). Not forgetting Xiufong and Wenqing of course! I miss and love you girls lots!
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CarysMummy
At 4:12 AM on
Monday, March 20, 2006
If any of my sis's friend is reading this, PLS GO AND TELL YOUR TEACHER I DID JESSICA'S HOMEWORK FOR HER! Haha! Yes I helped her do a piece of the many homeworks she has. And guess what? It was a 周记 that i helped her with. I actually wrote a chinese essay again after so many years! I'm so proud of myself. However, I was supposed to complete at least 2 1/2 pages according to her requirements but after squeezing my brain juice dry, i only managed to come up with 1 1/2. Now all that the smart girl has to do is just to edit MY work and make it HERS and hand it up. *shakes head* Students nowadays...tsktsk!Tadah! This is MY work!!
First page!
Second page!Afterwhich, my "teacher" did some editing. Erm ALOT of editings I mean. Haha. She said my 错别字 is terrible. Not mentioning those words that are left in Han Yu Pin Yin. Haha.
My marked piece of work.Caught Disney On Ice on Wednesday with sis. A pity Da Jie couldn't join us in this yearly event. But well, she was living the life of a queen in India. Too bad Sis! And once again, Disney never disappoints people. It was still as splendid! It's like for the whole 2 hours you'll keep your eyes to the stage and anticipates what follows with excitement. Simply wonderful and that's why we'll catch it every year without fail. We're great fans of Disney On Ice.
The castle.
The casts. A pity we cannot capture clearly.
The props. Magnificent.
After the performance. Satisfied sisters
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CarysMummy
At 2:40 PM on
Saturday, March 18, 2006
8 hours at work today constantly filled with images of him in my head. Drowning. Just can't get him off my mind. Sickening.
By,
CarysMummy
At 2:30 PM on
真的好想再说一次我爱你。
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CarysMummy
At 3:17 PM on
Friday, March 17, 2006
是不是往往得不到的东西就是好的？我是不是不该那么执着下去？但至今我心里只有他的存在一直除不掉。请赐我能够忘记一切的力量。
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CarysMummy
At 2:55 PM on
Thursday, March 16, 2006
很奇妙的，他还仍然是我至今唯一真正真心喜欢的一个男人。我也对我自己的这份执着感到惊讶。是我太钻牛角尖吗？我真的真的很想知道这背后的真正因素。到底有谁能告诉我？
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CarysMummy
At 3:16 AM on
Wednesday, March 15, 2006
http://kevan.org/johari?name=j+a+s+m+i+n+e+l+i+u
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CarysMummy
At 2:19 PM on
Sunday, March 12, 2006
Totally enjoyed the day out with Lao Shi and Lao Shi Gong! It's been a great day! Went expo for fairs and tim sum buffet lunch at Tung Lok. Wonderful!
This is just a portion of what we had. Simply delicious! Love it!
A photo taken with my favourite teacher, Ms Mak. Love her!After lunch we went to visit Thad, his wife and their 2 lovely cutie pies! It's been sooo long since I last saw them. They are simply tooooo adorable. My new found love! HAHA! My new found cutie pies!
Cutie pie No. 1. Isn't she so adorable?
Cutie pie No. 2. I actually find her more adorable. Just love her expression-less face. SOOOO CUTE!! 
A picture taken with Cutie pie No. 1.
Ms Mak with both cutie pies!!
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CarysMummy
At 11:13 AM on
Monday, March 06, 2006
I guess the way my body reacts to an unhappy mood is turn to excessive eating. Gorged myself with food the entire day and now it feels doubly terrible. I just feel weak and faint these days.I really really do not know if I'll regret my decision at the end of the day. It wasn't that firm a decision afterall. All I know is he deserves a girl who knows how to love him hence I got to let him go. I wish him happiness.
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CarysMummy
At 5:45 PM on
Sunday, March 05, 2006
原来他们说心痛的感觉是真的。我的心一直在痛，痛了三年但今晚是最痛的一次。痛得有点无法忍受。我一直不想看到的事今晚都看见了。这是一个很难忍受的事实。我根本不该在那出现。这只让我自己伤得更深。但今晚看到了他的她，我心理很清楚我是彻彻底底的输了。一切再也不可能有挽回的一天。我知道我必须放手，但我始终做不到。我尝试过，努力过，但一次比一次伤得深。我再也不敢去尝试了。我害怕再一次的失败。这种感觉真的好痛好痛。我不只伤害了自己，也伤害了很多无辜的人。也难怪朋友会这么看我，这都因为他们永远都不可能会了解我的内心深处。我在他们眼里就是那个只会玩弄别人感情的坏女人。这句话的确深深得影响了我。他们根本就不可能会了解，因为就连我自己都不了解我自己，那又有谁会了解我呢？
对于你所想知道的，我只能告诉你，我是真的很认真的去尝试忘掉而去接受你。也的确付出了我的真心去喜欢你。我非常感激你对我的爱，但是我心里的结始终还是打不开。并不是你做得不够多或不够好，这完全都是我个人心理的问题。没人帮得了我。我只能对你说我对你充满了抱歉，这绝对是我万万也不想发生而对你做的事。
我再也不想历史重演。也没有再强的心去承受多一次的失败。我需要一段很长很长的日子来恢复过来。一切到此为止。我祈祷上帝会赐我力量努力和坚强的克服一切的不愉快。
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CarysMummy
At 3:56 PM on
Friday, March 03, 2006
Eventually I broke down once again. I have no more excuses to give myself. I feel the pain, the hurt. I don't even understand myself so how do i expect others to understand me. It's inevitable they think that way of me. But I do feel hurt. Getting hurt twice today by what they said is too much for me to bear. Perhaps you don't take them seriously but i do. Perhaps you did not think there will be an impact but there is. The very sentence you said came down hard on me. Do you think I wanted things to turn out that way? Do you think I did it on purpose? Do you think I started things with the intention of ending it? Which human being in the right mind doesn't want a relationship to turn out well? And by saying what you just said about me really hurt me. Just noone will understand. Not even myself. I say I love myself but i'm hurting myself more each time. I really do not know how to get out of this. I'm tired. Really really tired. I want to break free from everything. Just tell me what I can do.
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CarysMummy
At 4:05 AM on
Everything seemed like a dream. A sweet dream. I was truly over the moon for a couple of days and now I'm back to square one. I've lost the feelings to carry on. I just do not know how to love.
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CarysMummy
Jasmine