Long Awaited Update.

At 11:38 AM on Sunday, November 14, 2004

Yes I'm at work at e CC again. Wow dunno how many donkey years since i last updated. Yes my com is still dead.

Guess what? I found a job Mon-Fri, 9am-6pm back at SECDC AGAIN! If shifu sees this he will have something to say. PA siao. Haha. Oh ya, it's been long since i last toked to him. How's ya shifu? Will be working all the way till sch term starts in Jan. Can't go for my class chalet cos of work. Pretty disappointed as this is the first class chalet and I was looking forward to it even before exams. Well.. seems lk I'll just hafta bury myself in work. But den again..going back to the same place to work seemed a little uninteresting. Seems lk almost everything have changed. I guess it's just me..I can't accept changes or cos I'm too sentimental and emotional? I hope I can change instead. Pretty sick of burying myself in e past and feeling miserable tinking of dem. Give me a brand new Jasmine pls?

Hmm.. something unexpected happened recently which requires me to make a decision. Gotten myself trapped between want, fear and worries. I seriously do not know what I want as all this came too sudden. I suddenly feel lk I wanna just avoid but that's not the way to handle. Too childish. But I really dunno wad to do. Typical Jasmine tinking so much again. Everything is actually so simple but i had to make things complicated. Good friends first we shall be but.. Knowing myself, I can if it's natural but this time round I actually found it hard to say let's be good friends first. Is it cos I know that's not what I want? Pls tell me why. Sigh. It's always me. I guess I'll just leave everything to fate and do nothing about it. Frankly, I really can't feel that u're serious. I'm sorry but i really can't. Still, why me? But deep down I noe the problem lies with me. Suddenly felt a sense of guilt. Hmm...

Well, it's been long since i last keep in contact with everyone. Shifu, A10, 4/8, BB Yepers. Our dear Weeyang in faraway land. Wonder how he's doing. Hope he's coping well. Looking forward to meeting him again.

GUESS WHAT?!?!?!?! MY SHOES GOT STOLEN TODAY AGAIN!!!!! AND OF ALL SHOES IT HAS TO BE MY FAVOURITE PAIR!!!!!! ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!! I JUST CAN'T HELP FEELING SAD AND CAN'T STOP WHINING! SOBSOBSOB!!

By,
CarysMummy