I Feel Loved

At 6:18 AM on Saturday, December 04, 2004

Nothing much to add recently cos everyday's bout working. No after work activities as well. Well, I'm a dull and boring gal anyway.

Went to Ah Ma's house yesterday after work with daddy. My heart melt when i saw Ah Ma's face lit up when she saw me ( Hey I'm not trying to brag but she's really happy to see me. Dun say my Ah Ma's trying to entertain me ok! )Though it was just a short while, but i could feel ah ma's love for me. She held my hand saying the same things again, "an zua li eh qiu ar ni gua?", she pat me on my back and the feeling is really good cos i've neva been dat close to ah ma before. A different kind of feeling totally. Makes me feel that love from family is the most wonderful thing on earth. So why do i need a bf?

Went to visit my colleague at tan tock seng hospital on wed. She's diagnosed with cancer at advance stage. Looking at her I really feel that life is unpredictable and meaningless. She used to be so bubbly and cheerful and such things had to happen to her. Life is unfair isn't it? I often wonder y do we have to work so hard when eventually we're all gonna die? I noe it's very pessimistic to think dat way esp at age of 19 but such things really makes me wonder. What's the point of living?

Dear Lord, I pray that u'll protect and bless Jovian through her most difficult times and take away all her pain and suffering. I pray that she'll be able to pull through this tough period. Amen.

By,
CarysMummy