Wad I had.
At 8:46 AM on
Monday, February 28, 2005
Original plan today was to lunch at Genki but mummy's 3 dearest daughters woke up late so she decided to prepare lunch for us instead. Had western food again but different this time. Yummy yummy!
My share of fish & chips with mussels!
Another plate of fish & chips.
Different flavour mussels. There's plain, garlic & cheese, garlic & cheese & black pepper, garlic & cheese & chilli powder & black pepper. Yummy!
A plate of fruits after meal.
Closer view. There's mango, strawberries, watermelon, honeydew, pessimon and grapes.
Table full of food! By,
CarysMummy
Long long post.
At 3:29 AM on
Sunday, February 27, 2005
Shall begin with the job I've started on Mon. It was my dream timing however not exactly my dream job. I'm only happy cos I'm fortunate to have found an office job from 830am to 1pm where I can leave for sch which starts at 2pm. Perfect timing. Which company would want to hire such worker for such timing everyday? It's none other than back at Southeast Community Development Council. (Okay Shifu, not that I REALLY love PA so much. I guess it's fate really.) First time I worked there was after my A's under the Social Assistance department handling only the kindergarten scheme. Second time I go back there again was during my first sem sch hols under the Projects department handling Medical Benefits applications for the elderly and some other events. This time I go back again under Social Assistance doing registering of cases and other stuff. But this time I actually feel the stress. One thing cos I'm still studying. My little pea brain can't really take so much. No doubt working half day is good, but when i'm at work I tink of schoolwork and worse still when i'm in school I tink of my work. Afraid I might make mistakes and imagining my boss cursing me behind my back and worrying what I will get the next morning I go to work. Everyday's about worries and rushing. I must leave at 1pm sharp so that I can rush back home and get e car and rush to school just on e dot. I've learnt to go beyond my 80km/h cap. That's bad. But yesterday was relaxing cos kind Eunice offered to come to my workplace to pick me up so that I dun haf to rush!! That's so sweet and understanding of her.
Coming up next is the Seoul Garden lunch I had with Jinny, Donald, Leo and Nizhen. Met up them at Bugis Seoul after work. Had a fun and laughter-filled day. As usual the zhong ji mi ma game AGAIN and guess wad? How sway can I be? First shout and BINGO i got the right number. IDIOT! Forfeit doubled. Number 62 I will never forget you! I tink I'm the Seoul Queen. (Jinny, it's time to step down. I'm next!) Argh. Ate damn alot. What's this about losing weight eh? Sigh.
Us at Seoul Garden. Does it look familiar? Yes it's the same place. Same seat summore.
Our very own prawn omelete in the making.
Finished product. It's really tasty no joke.
Leo's hokkien mee in the making. Dun judge by appearance. It taste really good. Good chef we have.
As compared to the other time I had with e Yeppers, this time is really different. Food cooked were really delicious and satisfying.
After which we went to watch White Noise. Yes you did not see wrongly, JASMINE WATCHED HORROR! Actually it wasn't dat horrying considering e fact that half the time I watched it through my own 2cm by 2cm screen. Lol.
Recently I've finally experienced for myself what mummy used to tell me. She used to say,'you will experience it when u reach e age.' Dumb, naive and innocent den, i dun quite understand. Tinking I might not get the chance to experience it. But now i do. It is really the passing phase where u experience different things at different age. I guess for now it's e relationships phase. Heard a few problems with relationships among my friends. Conclusion? Guys are TROUBLE.
I have this serious psychological thing bout me. I just can't be in love for long. Feelings come and go at rocket speed. Believe it or not. Even I tink it's too scary and cannot be explained. Many people say that's cos i've not met the right person. Hope it's true. But whatever it is, I enjoy my life now. Friends and family are all I need. Why do I need a boyfriend when I have friends who loves me just as much? I'm afraid to fall in love. They will just disappear. It's scary. By,
CarysMummy
Characteristics of Gemini, Ox
At 8:00 AM on
Monday, February 21, 2005
You're quite adventurous and probably travel a fair amount. Seeing how other people live gives you a profound appreciation for your own culture. There's a good chance that you will work with an overseas volunteer organization at some point in your life. Providing medical care or building homes for people in impoverished countries can give you a profound sense of satisfaction. Alternately, you may provide financial assistance to countries affected by famine, war, or natural disasters. The healing professions probably appeal to you. You'd make an excellent doctor, nurse, or emergency medical technician. Medical research is also a strong possibility for you.
Your biggest challenge is learning to relax. Very often, you're so busy doing nice things for other people that you forget to pamper yourself. Your biggest strength is a genuine desire to help humankind. You make the world a better place.
How true is this? By,
CarysMummy
Pls tell me why.
At 1:58 PM on
Sunday, February 20, 2005
Just when I'm beginning to let myself fall in love again, my inner self says no. I have this psychological barrier within me that I can't seem to cross. It's not that I didn't make an effort to bring myself out but it just seemed I can't get over. It's a real huge barrier that is constantly preventing me from moving further. I dunno when this barrier will disappear or will there be such a day? Who will remove this barrier for me? I can't see my future in this. I seem to be contradicting myself always. I'm tired. Really.
Though I'm happy with this group of classmates, it seemed we did not handle things in the right way and in the process unknowingingly brought unhappiness to other pple. Just wanna voice out my views about this whole issue. Yes I might be so wrong to condemn people just liddat for things they did not do or things that they dun tink it's wrong. But dun I haf the right to choose and judge for myself? Just lk how others judge me? It's really tiring to keep living under fear of how pple might think, how others might feel etc. Yes we should consider the feelings of others but do they ever consider our feelings? Do we just have to take whatever nonsense pple give us and treat it lk I deserve them and keep my mouth shut and say nothing about it? Everyone definitely has things they can't stand. I'm no exception. Dun lk my style of handling things? Den too bad. This is just me and I dun intend to change to suit anyone cos I simply can't please everyone. Theoretically it's not right but practically I just can't convince myself to put on a mask when I meet people. That's too fake. I wanna be who I am.
Something that really warms my heart is kinship. Only family ties are real and trustworthy. Had a terrible headache yesterday but I felt the pain was all worthwhile. My family's concern for me really touched me deeply. Mummy spent the whole night massaging my head, doing all she can to ease my pain. Daddy, usually the man of few words, kept asking me if I was ok from the moment I opened my eyes, comforting me with his words of concern. As I had to work in e morning, mummy offered to come and bring me home. My little sis purposely came down to mum's shop earlier so that the sun will not be so strong den mummy can go and bring me home and even told mummy, 'mummy ar, u go earlier better la.. Den er jie jiu bu hui sai dao tai yang'. I was so touched when mummy told me my little sis was afraid the sun would worsen my headache. I really dunno how to express my gratitude and really really thankful and fortunate to have this family. I have nothing more to ask for. I thank God for giving me a caring mum forever making sure my needs are well taken care of, for a protective dad, for my sweet sisters, for a wonderful family. They are my strength, my life, my everything. I love you daddy, mummy, da jie and mei till end of time. By,
CarysMummy
I love my wonderful BCG!
At 4:16 PM on
Friday, February 18, 2005
Group pic taken after bbq at the clubhouse. All tired but HAPPY! =) By,
CarysMummy
Happy Birthday to all!
At 4:48 PM on
Wednesday, February 16, 2005
My classmates waiting to Lao Yu Sheng.
Lao ah Lao ah Lao ah!! Yue Gao Yue Hao!
Flower 4?! Lol. By,
CarysMummy
More pics from Vday.
At 4:13 PM on
Yup that's me and BF in his car with e pretty n delicious cake!!
Something I got for him. Unfortunately it din turn out as I've expected. Disappointing. By,
CarysMummy
Just can't keep it anymore!
At 3:49 PM on
All thanks to the amount of food I take in really. Shockingly huge amount. Can EASILY finish a tin of love letters within 15 mins. Eats a MINIMUM of 10 pineapple tarts or cookies at any one time. I just simply can't control. It's one thing after another in large quantities. Is that an illness? By,
CarysMummy
Happy Valentine's Day!
At 3:18 PM on
Tuesday, February 15, 2005
First of all, I wish all my dearest frens Happy Vday!! Yup I enjoyed myself with BF. Once again I could feel the love and care he had given me. Thanx for everything my dearest.
A pretty Swensen's Ice-cream cake BF bought for me. It's SO PRETTY!!
What sweet BF gave me. I just so love you! By,
CarysMummy
A Reflective Run.
At 10:33 AM on
Monday, February 14, 2005
The chat with Qing really set me thinking. Of the way I wanna lead my life. I do not want to commit to relationship. I do not want to settle down. There was once when e desire to settle down with him was so strong that I felt so in love but nothing happened and he say to wait. Yes I wun deny the fact that I did fell in love with him and he did made me feel loved. However, I still prefer being who I am now. No obligations, happy as I am. I enjoy the company of my frens and family. Decided that we shall just remain as friends. Hope he can understand. Do not wish to progress any further. I'm one who can survive well without boyfriend but definitely can't survive without my friends and family. I'm not feeling depressed over this dun worry. I'm just sure of what I want. I'm contented having just my frens and my family. The conclusion after an hour's run at ecp today. I don't want or need a boyfriend.
Really missed SAC days very very much. Secondary 1 and 2, I had the company of Qing, Seb and xiufong. Running along the corridors, projects, taking photos at Seb's place, how we screamed at Qing's place with her 5 dogs, many many precious memories. Secondary 3 and 4, Qing left and I had the company of Lao Gong(s)-Tzewei and Hweeying, Nai-erzi(Mingwei), Seb, Beizhen, JieYing and many many more. Quite a big gang den. How we went through Sec 3 camp, OBS, and many inter-class competitions together. Not forgetting times during bball training and camps, how we survived through those torturous trainings and fought our way to the medals. How we shed tears and blood together. I really miss you gals alot alot. Pls come back to me! By,
CarysMummy
Many in one.
At 12:02 PM on
Sunday, February 13, 2005
Was kind of affected when i chat with Qing just now. When she said things lk she felt she had no life and stuff that happened, I actually felt sad. At that moment, I suddenly asked myself if i can ever find the man who can really love me wholeheartedly and take care of me. Will I really be really really happy then? Dun worry my frens I'm not back to depression mode. Just a thought, a feeling that came after I realised what MEN are capable of doing. She said she feel happy for me that I've managed to move on. Have I really moved on? Hmm.. Somehow I wasn't sure. Weird. Feeling insecure. But I'm perfectly fine.
I get really affected when I know frens around me aren't happy. Esp close frens I really care for. What is LOVE doing to pple man? Bringing more harm than good.
Dear God, I pray for happiness and good health to be blessed upon all my dearest frens and family. I pray for your guidance to help them through when they are at their lowest point. Amen.
*Qing, I sincerely hope that u'll find ur happiness soon. I wish to see the smile back on ur face again. I want to see you happy. Pls tell me you will?* By,
CarysMummy
Pics taken with my classmates at ECP
At 10:33 AM on
Monday, February 07, 2005
My classmates. Where's Donald? But it's okay la. Lol. Taken before cycling. Look at Jasmine. Dark but still can be seen.
Group pic taken at the jetty. Look at Jasmine again. All black!! Argh! So maid-looking!
By,
CarysMummy
I'm not gonna hide.
At 4:33 AM on
KTV-ing with Jinny, Eunice, Leo, Donald and Nizhen yesterday was really really enjoyable. Haven been that happy for a long time.
But of cos BF brought my happiness to an even higher level.
Something silly we did. Haha. Trying to see if we can distinguish which hand belong to who. Hid in e car to take shots. Haha.
Can tell? LOL. By,
CarysMummy
::HAPPY::VERY HAPPY::OVERLY HAPPY::
At 5:16 PM on
Saturday, February 05, 2005
Had a wonderful "get together" session today with the anti-durian gang. Simply love their company so much. Finally found a group of people whom i can really call them 'My Friends'. Truly the people I can include into my circle of trust. Once thot that i'll haf 3 yrs of loneliness but it's no longer the case now that my friends have appeared. I thank God for having found my frens early. I love you people. I belong somewhere at long last.
The night spent with BF was great. Well, times together with him are always enjoyable. I feel fortunate. Feeling sweet in my heart. Will oways remember each and every single moment spent with you no matter what may happen in future. Love u lots.
*Not obvious right my anti-durian gang?* By,
CarysMummy
The Death Test.
At 1:38 AM on
Wednesday, February 02, 2005
August 2070 at age 85
- probable cause -
cancer
YOU DIE:
85.2 years
WHY YOU DIE?
56% cancer
24% car accident
13% overdose
5% drowning of the lungs
2% wounds
You have 23928.7 days left on this earth.
You've already lived 23% of your life.
By,
CarysMummy
L O V E
At 4:43 PM on
Tuesday, February 01, 2005
I'm happy knowing my frens are happy to see a happy Jasmine. From now on I just wan to be happy. Case closed.
WEN SHI JIAN QING WEI HE WU? ( BF will not understand this. LOL. ) Isn't LOVE supposed to be sweet and makes one feel on top of the world? Den in that case why are there so many pple suffering and miserable because of that? I dun understand why.
Dun worry my dear frens. There's nothing wrong with me. That's just a thot. I'm feeling loved. The happiest ever in this 2 yrs after that incident. And I sincerely want everyone around me to be happy. Let's work together ya?
By,
CarysMummy
Jasmine
