Many in one.

At 12:02 PM on Sunday, February 13, 2005

First of all it's the CNY. Not any different from past years. In fact as I grow older, I no longer feel any excitement. It's just another day. No special feelings. Guess what? I actually gained more than 5 kgs this CNY. My goodness.. How sinful can those tarts, cookies, love letters and other goodies be?? I shan't whine further. No not reverting back to the old jasmine. NO!

Was kind of affected when i chat with Qing just now. When she said things lk she felt she had no life and stuff that happened, I actually felt sad. At that moment, I suddenly asked myself if i can ever find the man who can really love me wholeheartedly and take care of me. Will I really be really really happy then? Dun worry my frens I'm not back to depression mode. Just a thought, a feeling that came after I realised what MEN are capable of doing. She said she feel happy for me that I've managed to move on. Have I really moved on? Hmm.. Somehow I wasn't sure. Weird. Feeling insecure. But I'm perfectly fine.

I get really affected when I know frens around me aren't happy. Esp close frens I really care for. What is LOVE doing to pple man? Bringing more harm than good.

Dear God, I pray for happiness and good health to be blessed upon all my dearest frens and family. I pray for your guidance to help them through when they are at their lowest point. Amen.

*Qing, I sincerely hope that u'll find ur happiness soon. I wish to see the smile back on ur face again. I want to see you happy. Pls tell me you will?*

By,
CarysMummy