A Reflective Run.

At 10:33 AM on Monday, February 14, 2005

Yesterday I was all confused. Today I am pretty sure of what I want.

The chat with Qing really set me thinking. Of the way I wanna lead my life. I do not want to commit to relationship. I do not want to settle down. There was once when e desire to settle down with him was so strong that I felt so in love but nothing happened and he say to wait. Yes I wun deny the fact that I did fell in love with him and he did made me feel loved. However, I still prefer being who I am now. No obligations, happy as I am. I enjoy the company of my frens and family. Decided that we shall just remain as friends. Hope he can understand. Do not wish to progress any further. I'm one who can survive well without boyfriend but definitely can't survive without my friends and family. I'm not feeling depressed over this dun worry. I'm just sure of what I want. I'm contented having just my frens and my family. The conclusion after an hour's run at ecp today. I don't want or need a boyfriend.

Really missed SAC days very very much. Secondary 1 and 2, I had the company of Qing, Seb and xiufong. Running along the corridors, projects, taking photos at Seb's place, how we screamed at Qing's place with her 5 dogs, many many precious memories. Secondary 3 and 4, Qing left and I had the company of Lao Gong(s)-Tzewei and Hweeying, Nai-erzi(Mingwei), Seb, Beizhen, JieYing and many many more. Quite a big gang den. How we went through Sec 3 camp, OBS, and many inter-class competitions together. Not forgetting times during bball training and camps, how we survived through those torturous trainings and fought our way to the medals. How we shed tears and blood together. I really miss you gals alot alot. Pls come back to me!

By,
CarysMummy