It's me again.

At 2:53 PM on Saturday, March 05, 2005

All I know to do is to rant and rant and rant, whine and whine and whine when things doesn't go my way. I know it's high time I quit doing all these. I know and I KNOW! I guess the ONLY person who really knows how to make me really feel much better by listening and comforting me with his words is my Shifu. My bestest friend indeed.

This week has been a pretty bad one for me with tests, work, stress, unfocused mind and bad relationship with people all falling on me. The 3 tests I had this week were terribly done. For that I only have myself to blame for not studying. Work is piling and seems never ending at CDC. (Yes I got a pay rise but so?) I predict life there's not gonna get any better after my newly found young friend cum colleague leaves. Yes I will miss him.

Really agree with what Donald said. I miss those innocent times. No badmouthing, no unhappiness, no worries, no backstabbing, no problems with relationships. Just the pure and simple Jasmine she used to be. But that's no longer the case. Jasmine has turned into a monster. Someone so evil and mean that she dun even understand herself now. Noone understands her. Her character, her attitude, her actions, her behaviour, her mindset are now all unacceptable. A monster she is now. Badmouthing, condemning and giving attitude are all she knows.

I guess it's only a matter of time that all my friends can't stand me anymore and leave me. My only friends left then will be my daddy, my mummy and my sisters and of cos I hope Shifu's one of them.

I just can't seem to put my many thoughts into words and blog them all out now. There's far more things i wanna say. They seem to be drowning me. Whatever. Who will understand them or me anyway?

By,
CarysMummy