L O S T.

At 12:03 PM on Sunday, March 06, 2005

1. Don't tell me the same things are gonna happen to me again. I hope it's not. History repeating itself? Pls pls pls tell me it's not.

2. I feel bad for treating Neve that way yesterday. I really din mean it. Maybe cos i expect too much from him. Sorry Neve. But your words did made me tear.

3. I'm gonna miss the small boy when he's gone. Something which will happen soon. Sigh.

4. I'm afraid I'll do badly for this sem.

5. Daddy reminds me everyday that i'm fat and keeps rubbing into my wound.

6. Been gorging myself with food lately. Perhaps due to stress and unhappiness I divert my attention to food. Situation now is getting out of hand. Mum and aunt are terribly shocked.

7. Forever having crushes.

8. Felt bad towards Nat. Trust me everything that happened wasn't what i planned. I just couldn't help it. Forgive me.

9. Never trust my own feelings anymore. Definitely nothing to do with people out there. Came to a conclusion it's just me.

10. I can never fall in love with anyone for long. But one thing, I really wish i can. Really.


A lost sheep. Searching for directions. Looking for what i yearn for. Nothing found. Miserable.


By,
CarysMummy