Should I?

At 2:06 PM on Sunday, July 03, 2005

He appeared in my dreams again. This time together with his gf and my family. Having a meal on the same table in a restaurant. How weird. And I guess I know what that implies. I will not dwell on that anymore. What's past is past. Currently I just hope I won't fall deeper and deeper. Need an emergency brake and someone to pull me back.

Gotten a letter from NUH for my braces. Dilemma. Should I or should I not? I really do not know.

I've been trying to be a better person. To curb my temper and show less of my attitude. To be a better daughter, sister and friend. To be more tolerant and understanding. To be forgiving and kind. Though I know it doesn't seem I've changed abit but i've been constantly reminding myself. Pls give me more time.

A new sem is starting and that marks the end of my holidays. For this holidays, besides working, there's one very very happy thing that happened to me and made this entire holiday such a fulfilling and unforgettable one. That is, knowing this bunch of wonderful companions-the E&H company. Although there's also unhappiness between me and my mum because of this, it is in fact a blessing in disguise. To be able to give my mum the assurance she needed. That I've absolutely no regrets knowing them, and that she can be 200% relieved that I'm very well taken care of by the most fun-loving, righteous and reliable group of people, the most precious and cherished gift given to me. Now that all things have been cleared, back to normal and in fact better than before, I'm just so grateful for everything that happened. I'm happy beyond words can describe.

By,
CarysMummy