` there can be miracles, when you believe..Though hope is frail, it's hard to kill..who knows what miracles you can achieve..when you believe somehow you will, you will when you believe.. ;

I wanna sleep forever.

At 3:57 PM on Friday, September 30, 2005

Why do I keep dreaming of my Mr Right BUT CAN’T MAKE OUT WHO HE IS?!? This is like the don’t know how many times I dreamt of someone so so so so superly sweet to me but it all happened IN MY DREAM! It was really all oh-so-sweet and everything was so vivid but the problem is I DON’T KNOW WHO HE IS! He really is my dream man but ONLY IN MY DREAM! This is so sickening! Is it that only in my dreams will someone be able to penetrate and take me away and bring me forward? Then I’d rather not wake up and sleep forever.

By,
CarysMummy

And once more.

At 10:09 AM on Thursday, September 29, 2005

Am I at it again? Why is it that there is always something there to stop me when it seems I’m about to move a step forward? Why am I held back to where I once stood stagnant for a long time again? Was what mummy said yesterday right? Was I really always yearning for that someone to appear again? Or to return to me again? I’ve always thought he’s no longer an issue to me anymore, am I deceiving myself and everyone else whom I’ve said the same to? I swear I’ve tried but I still seemed very much trapped. Why is that so? It’s been really long. There is a wall that no one seems to be able to penetrate. How long more is this going to last? I’m amazed at myself too. A constant heartache that I can’t cure.

By,
CarysMummy

Over the weekend.

At 1:50 PM on Monday, September 05, 2005

Went malacca over the weekend with family and relatives. A relaxing trip. All about eating and eating and more eating as well as sleeping and sleeping after eating and eating. Though guilty but fun! Took a couple of pics. Back to reality on monday.

By,
CarysMummy

At 10:46 PM on Sunday, September 04, 2005