And once more.

At 10:09 AM on Thursday, September 29, 2005

Am I at it again? Why is it that there is always something there to stop me when it seems I’m about to move a step forward? Why am I held back to where I once stood stagnant for a long time again? Was what mummy said yesterday right? Was I really always yearning for that someone to appear again? Or to return to me again? I’ve always thought he’s no longer an issue to me anymore, am I deceiving myself and everyone else whom I’ve said the same to? I swear I’ve tried but I still seemed very much trapped. Why is that so? It’s been really long. There is a wall that no one seems to be able to penetrate. How long more is this going to last? I’m amazed at myself too. A constant heartache that I can’t cure.

By,
CarysMummy