I'm such an ungrateful girl.

At 3:39 PM on Friday, October 21, 2005

Suddenly I miss this one person very much. Not that I’ve not seen her for a very long time. In fact I see her everyday in the office. I just missed the times we used to spend together. Someone I’ve so taken for granted. Someone who always takes care of me. But in return what she got was ungratefulness from me. I feel guilty. Really guilty. I regretted very much saying those things to her that kind of ended the relationship between us. I wanted so much to tell her I’m sorry but words just doesn’t come out. And I guess all’s too late now. Although I see her almost everyday, things are just different now. I miss her companion in the office. I miss talking to her. I miss telling her things. I just miss her. If ever you happen to read this which I do not think so, just wanna say I’m really sorry and hope my ‘ah yi’ will come back to me one day.

I have to admit I’ve been a really bad friend to all. I chuck them aside when I don’t feel like entertaining anyone. And yet I know some friends will always be there. It’s just like taking them for granted which makes me such a shitty thing. I guess I just don’t treat friendships that seriously. But I do really hope for close friends whom I can share stuffs. I think my friendships just doesn’t last or rather I didn’t make any effort to make them last. I suck at keeping friends. Guess I’m just not worthy to be anyone’s friend. To all my friends out there, I’m really sorry.  

By,
CarysMummy