Miss Grumpy

At 12:45 PM on Tuesday, October 11, 2005

Exams are really approaching near and I’m still not really prepared. For 13 years of studying life with countless of exams and tests, this is the first and only time I felt what is stress. Or rather felt very afraid and worried. All I’m asking for is just a pass to proceed on to the next stage smoothly. I just hope to finish this course without having to repeat any modules along the way. Just this simple wish of mine. I have absolutely no confidence in any of the 4 modules taken this sem. Seriously know nuts about any of them. That’s why I’m extra worried this sem. I know I have only myself to blame for not attending lectures diligently, not attentive in lectures, did not make any effort to understand fully what has been taught, and plus the no interest and no knowledge at all in this course made things worse. I just know I have to hang on no matter what. This is not the time to chicken out. I know I simply can’t. A wrong choice made but I have to continue by hook or by crook.

Read something on the papers this morning while having breakfast. It’s something on horoscopes. Though I’m not really obsessed with horoscopes but I do believe in it to a certain extent. This time is about the dark side of the horoscope. It commented that Geminis are people who will Chu(4) Chu(4) Dian(4) i.e. ‘give out electricity’ wherever they go. The more detailed description is when a Gemini is interested in you at this point in time, he/she is thinking of how to attract another one at the same time. I interpreted it as not being devoted and I see it as something bad. And the worse thing is, it’s true. Even mummy agrees it’s true. I hate to think that it’s true because I’ve always wanted to find someone whom I can devote my love and time to and not ‘play’ around. However it seems that someone hasn’t appeared.

Just who can make me fall deeply in love? I wonder.

By,
CarysMummy