Nostalgic.

At 4:24 PM on Wednesday, October 19, 2005

Exams are finally over. It’s only the first day of holidays and I think I’m starting to miss going to school. Suddenly missed my classmates. I start to fear how life’s gonna be after we finally graduate. It will be scary to even think about it. Working life is really monotonous. It’s the first day back at work for the entire day. I’m starting to feel lifeless really. School is still the best. Sad to say I’ve only one and a half years left. I wonder what lies ahead.

Been having lots of misses for lots of things lately. I know you won’t be reading this anyway. Really missed times spent with you. Whenever I think back, heartache hits me hard. I try not to think but it just surfaces naturally. I feel like a silly cow. Anyway, whatever. Things will not be the same ever again no matter how hard I think about it. Sometimes I wonder if I’ve missed out the best things or people that are right beside me all the while? And just that I’m so trapped in this world of mine that I failed to appreciate and cherish all those around me. Just how many innocent souls I’ve hurt? I’m sorry all.

I wish school will start soon though I hope it will drag longer before I really step out into this realistic world. Therefore I hope as well it will not end so soon so starting later means ending later but I can’t wait to go back to school. I’m such a contradicting cow.

Headaches seemed to come pretty frequently these days. Is it stress or plain thinking too much?  

By,
CarysMummy