At 3:56 PM on Friday, March 03, 2006

Eventually I broke down once again. I have no more excuses to give myself. I feel the pain, the hurt. I don't even understand myself so how do i expect others to understand me. It's inevitable they think that way of me. But I do feel hurt. Getting hurt twice today by what they said is too much for me to bear. Perhaps you don't take them seriously but i do. Perhaps you did not think there will be an impact but there is. The very sentence you said came down hard on me. Do you think I wanted things to turn out that way? Do you think I did it on purpose? Do you think I started things with the intention of ending it? Which human being in the right mind doesn't want a relationship to turn out well? And by saying what you just said about me really hurt me. Just noone will understand. Not even myself. I say I love myself but i'm hurting myself more each time. I really do not know how to get out of this. I'm tired. Really really tired. I want to break free from everything. Just tell me what I can do.

By,
CarysMummy