At 1:22 PM on Saturday, August 19, 2006

I'm so mentally and physically drained this week. Couldn't focus at all be it while driving or during lectures. The feeling is indescribable. Definitely not a good one.

I actually regretted letting it out. I should just keep it within myself. Now it seems things are getting out of control and it feels terrible. Pls take all feelings associated with that away from me. I don't wish to be feeling them and make myself miserable. Please.

I have no idea why I have that sudden thinking. The feeling of breaking free from what I've always regarded as my everything. I don't wish to wait till the day when I feel the world come crushing down on me. It is because it is something I treasure so much, the hurt doubles if anything undesirable were to happen. I admit I won't be able to take it. Probably it's time I divert my 100%.

Allow me to be unhappy for just today. Tomorrow will be a brand new day.

By,
CarysMummy