At 1:01 AM on Saturday, June 21, 2008

Finally survived the week. Getting happier day by day. I'm definitely much happier today than i was in Day 2. I attribute this to mentality and the way i see things now. I realised that changing my mentality towards this whole issue did help a great deal in adapting to my work life now. Time passes easier and I'm feeling less unhappy. No doubt I did have some regrets leaving DISCO, but I take it as a learning process for me as well. I'm not saying that I want to or hope to go back there now. Just that at times i'll think about it and feel that life back then was really relaxing and all. Nothing is perfect in this world. Although I can take my own sweet time for dinner now, I miss having lunch with Alice and the rest. Although I have the flexibility of reporting for work/leaving office now, I miss the 530 sharp dismissal i used to have to see my dear. Although I have relatively more difficult things to do now, I still miss doing nothing and chatting around with warmer and friendlier colleagues. Human beings are indeed hard to satisfy.

But at the end of the day, everything that happened is a learning process for me. From joining DISCO to having stayed for almost a year to leaving DISCO and now to having joined Citi, I had different thoughts about how I wanna lead my life. As usual, the indecisive side of me is always controlling me. This moment this and next moment that. I used to be very upset over wrong decisions made but now i've learnt not to take things too seriously and not be too hard on myself. Still in the process of changing and adapting.

On a side side note, my colleagues just told me that they put on weight working this shift. Oh no!! I dun wanna put on weight! Imagine a fat and shag looking Jasmine! Noooooooooooo!! Ben says I'll start slping late and waking up later than before. I'll have problems slping at night and my bioclock will go haywire. Hmm, probably i'm feeling a little of those symptoms already. Ok, only 6 mths it shall be!

Surprisingly I'm blogging more often given my working hrs now.

By,
CarysMummy