At 2:21 AM on
Thursday, September 18, 2008
Anyway, that aside, everyday I tell myself I've gotta go back and blog about this and blog about that. But when I'm infront of my lappie I've no idea what to write about. Just bits and pieces here and there. Very random stuff.
Just start with how i'm having phobia with heels ever since that dreadful day. I was just talking about how Zann broke her heel in office the other day and that same thing happened to me not long after! And I thought that sort of things won't happen to me. I mean, what's the probability of breaking ur heel in office? Nvm, it just happened. I was breaking out in cold sweat (exaggerating la!) when I realised my heel broke! How did that happen I have no idea. I was sitting down and I've no idea where that pressure came from. Anyway, as in shows, I forcefully broke the other side as well and made it a pair of flats. Thankfully the other side managed to come out nicely, if not I think I would have been CPB Treasury Op's laughing stock, at least among Derivatives. So now, every pair of heels I wear comes with a certain fear By,
CarysMummy
At 2:01 AM on
Friday, September 12, 2008
But I was still feeling very upset that I didn't take a picture with pretty pretty Andrea. Sigh.
I think i've put on weight recently. But that stupid weighing scale we just bought is quite unreliable. Putting a scale in my room serves as a constant reminder that I won't want to revert to how I used to look like. That would prolly scare my dear away and give him nightmares. Haha. Let me post something exclusive and you'll understand.
Now you understand? Why noone at home told me I was disgustingly fat and allowed me to live in self denial still thinking i'm pretty? ARGH! Someone should wake me up wad! Sigh.
I must really control and practice self discipline. I hope I can slim down abit more. I wanna be a pretty pretty bride like Andrea la. Hehe. And I don't wanna scare dear away.
I feel like going on a holiday.
I can't wait for November, for xiao gen gen's arrival.
My estate is under lift upgrading now. It's quite disturbing.
Should I go for the mini Disco gathering organised by DHKL? I feel like leh. It should be fun.
By,CarysMummy
At 11:54 PM on
Wednesday, September 10, 2008
Besides that, it's the reunion of all the Merck peeps, both ex and present. It's been more than 1.5 yrs since i last saw them. I know i've always missed Merck peeps but I didn't realise the extent until tonight. I was so so so touched that I wasn't forgotten. It always feels consoling that you are also in the minds of the people whom you missed badly. Initially, I had my worries about attending the wedding and realising they have forgotten about me and I only had Phoebe. But because it's Andrea's wedding and I really wanna catch up with Phoebe, I told myself I really wish to be present. When I arrived at the reception and heard pretty Florence calling my name, at that moment I was really overjoyed. Followed by a big group of them who waved to me, everyone remembers me!!! I really appreciate that. Probably words just can't explain how I was feeling at that very moment. And when the moment I saw Phoebe, the hug we exchanged, priceless. In life, they are the kind of people whom we need and value most as compared to a relative who doesn't even know your name. I've no idea why I get affected a great deal just by little little things or words others say or do. Like for just now when Phoebe just said 妳跟着我, told me she arranged me together with the rest, I just felt still so taken care of as before when i'm still in Merck by all the big sisters. I know it might just seem like a super minor thing but it just feels so heart warming that everyone still treats you so well, talks to you, cares for you, listens to you, asks about you. That kind of attention and treatment is just so different from others. And when they all got together for toasting, I feel so much to be part of them again. The Merck family, really rocks. I miss you all, guys and gals.
Plenty of mixed feelings I have now. Dear is right, I always think and worry too much and sometimes they are just unnecessary. There are much more I wanna pen down but they just seemed to be stuck somewhere in that pea brain of mine. I'm just so full of 感触 tonight. Well, till they flow out again. Will try to get more pics from Phoebe if possible and post them in the next entry. By,
CarysMummy
At 12:06 PM on
Monday, September 08, 2008
The 3 black & white and the 4 green and yellow. My darlings.Next, really wanna thank dear for the wonderful surprise dinner. For all the wonderful planning and sweet thoughts. I really love and appreciate every min of it. In fact, all the time i spent with you is precious and enjoyable and I'm forever yearning for more. Can't get enough of it! Can't wait to live my life with you! I love you dear!
By,CarysMummy
Jasmine