At 11:54 PM on Wednesday, September 10, 2008

Many thoughts flowed through my mind after attending Andrea dearie's wedding. It's finally her big day and i really feel so happy for her from deep down my heart. While watching her videos and her marching in, I had a sudden strong urge to drop tears of happiness cos it really touched me quite abit. I wonder if it's because I really love attending weddings or because it's the wedding of someone whom I felt quite close to and really adore? Somehow or rather, though I seldom keep in touch nor talk to Andrea that frequently, there is this unexplainable kind of attachment to her. She just feels like a big sister to me. Someone i feel close to yet hardly talk. Yes, this weird kind of chemistry and feeling about her. Same goes for Phoebe. They are the 2 wonderful ladies constantly on my mind and really love talking to. I kinda concluded that it should be the latter that is causing me to be so emotional tonight. If it's a stranger's wedding then prolly i wun feel anything much. Once again, CONGRATS ANDREA DEARIE!!! YOU ARE REALLY GORGEOUS!!

Besides that, it's the reunion of all the Merck peeps, both ex and present. It's been more than 1.5 yrs since i last saw them. I know i've always missed Merck peeps but I didn't realise the extent until tonight. I was so so so touched that I wasn't forgotten. It always feels consoling that you are also in the minds of the people whom you missed badly. Initially, I had my worries about attending the wedding and realising they have forgotten about me and I only had Phoebe. But because it's Andrea's wedding and I really wanna catch up with Phoebe, I told myself I really wish to be present. When I arrived at the reception and heard pretty Florence calling my name, at that moment I was really overjoyed. Followed by a big group of them who waved to me, everyone remembers me!!! I really appreciate that. Probably words just can't explain how I was feeling at that very moment. And when the moment I saw Phoebe, the hug we exchanged, priceless. In life, they are the kind of people whom we need and value most as compared to a relative who doesn't even know your name. I've no idea why I get affected a great deal just by little little things or words others say or do. Like for just now when Phoebe just said 妳跟着我, told me she arranged me together with the rest, I just felt still so taken care of as before when i'm still in Merck by all the big sisters. I know it might just seem like a super minor thing but it just feels so heart warming that everyone still treats you so well, talks to you, cares for you, listens to you, asks about you. That kind of attention and treatment is just so different from others. And when they all got together for toasting, I feel so much to be part of them again. The Merck family, really rocks. I miss you all, guys and gals.

Plenty of mixed feelings I have now. Dear is right, I always think and worry too much and sometimes they are just unnecessary. There are much more I wanna pen down but they just seemed to be stuck somewhere in that pea brain of mine. I'm just so full of 感触 tonight. Well, till they flow out again. Will try to get more pics from Phoebe if possible and post them in the next entry.

By,
CarysMummy