At 1:29 AM on Wednesday, July 29, 2009

Drafting this entry in office now in case my emotions are gone by the time I reached home then I’ll have nothing to write about. So now, while they’re still fresh and present, there you go, a ranting entry. I had the most unmotivated day yesterday after so long. Today is no exception. Especially after something that happened that triggered the annoyed mode. It’s all accumulated since a long time ago. I feel like a volcano beginning to erupt. I’m no longer able to treat him nicely because he’s really a pain, an irritant. There are so many kinds of guys and this kind, seriously doesn’t earn my respect or the slightest admiration. Very much a loser in fact. Empty vessel makes the most noise. How apt.

Just what does he have to be able to survive? Probably that mouth of his. As I’m writing this entry, I still feel a great deal of displeasure towards him. Trying to recall whatever he have said or done or thought, I feel disgusted. Totally.

And I simply hate it when opportunities and responsibilities are given to him because he simply don’t deserve any. Anyone else but him! And just how many times and how long have he said he wanted to leave? Then jolly well leave! Why still sticking around and make yourself such a pain in the ass?! Frankly, I really can’t wait for him to leave. What’s the point of not even being serious and yet given opportunities? I just can’t take it lying down. And it pisses me a whole lot when he has things to do and yet gives a nonchalant attitude.

So want to tell him, want to leave then leave! And keep that big gap of yours shut if there isn’t a need for your contribution. Learn to be humble please and quit being a 马后炮. It just doesn’t make you any better looking or lovable. They just never fail to piss me off time and again.

And do tell me if there aren’t any better plans for me. I hate to be wasting time doing nothing like what I’m doing now. It just defeats the purpose of wanting to join a fast pace environment. And I just don’t see how giving me what I’m doing now can help me progress. It feels like backtracking instead. And what you claimed and your actions really doesn’t seem to synchronize. Don’t want me to be bored doing settlements all the time? Then is booking proof any more exciting? And if doing settlements doesn’t help me to progress, then copying and pasting does? Or striping me of all that I used to do does?

By,
CarysMummy