At 1:47 AM on Thursday, August 20, 2009

Just tell me what else is there for me except to stare at my pc? I'm seriously getting sick of this. There's no motivation anymore. Even that last bit which used to be my biggest motivation seems to be gone. Is that an indication I need to plan to move on? And it seriously doesn't help now that i'm down with this headache-neck-shoulders-back-gastric problems coming one after another and haunting me everyday. And i finally broke down after so long....

The thing that i've always been very proud of has been taken away from me - my perfect eyesight. It came as quite a big blow to me the day I realised I could no longer see clearly, in fact it is a drastic deterioration. Yes it's another of those issues as a result of my back/neck.

经过这一切的一切，我领悟了万物都不是必然的。特别是在我失去了这一直能让我很骄傲的东西。我无法解释那种感觉，有一点担心，一点害怕，一点失落。我真的很难过。

By,
CarysMummy