At 10:02 PM on
Saturday, September 12, 2009
I guess i'm just not the kind of friend whom good girl friends will come to me nor am i someone whom they will first think of when they're unhappy or needs a listening ear.
In short, just not a good friend to girls... neither am I someone who has really really close heart to heart girlfriends. I mean.. I do love all my dear girlfriends deep down in my heart alot but well.. I dunno.. Just felt very disturbed over it.. Perhaps I'm just the worst friend one can ever have..
On the other hand I think I have better affinity with guyfriends. Those whom i can talk to more at ease. Those who will come to me if they need someone to talk to and those who bothers and could sense it if i'm unhappy and talks to me. I'm not saying my girlfriends don't, they do care as well. It's just different I know. Somehow I could relate when I read about dear's cousin adeline talking about a similar issue she faced some time back.
Many feelings, many thoughts after the conversations with ash and tw. But i've really grown up throughout the years. Escapism? Never. I would have conveniently chose to shun all of them in the past. Now, I just wish to rekindle all feelings, all relationships lost. To rebuild all that's left and make them stronger, better. Girls, I will put in effort to be a better friend. We'll stay together. That's a promise.
A good consolation is my relationship with dear. Someone who'll never forsake me. I love you. By,
CarysMummy
Jasmine